Sunday, March 4, 2018
Don and Bert
"Don and Bert"
She would always pester, calling: "Don! Don! Don! I have to get my hair done!" He would respond, with a Tareyton hanging from his thin lips: "That's not hair--it's a brillo pad."
When he'd see her coming out of SAFEWAY with a shopping cart, he'd look over at me and proclaim: "Bag Lady."
Over 50 years, and when I resided with them, she was not allowed to talk until 2:00 o'clock--neither was I. At 2:00, the sounds came alive. First: GUIDING LIGHT, the soap opera. He would tell me: "All the women on this show are dogs, but Vanessa--she has class."
She would whimper when watching MacGyver, saying: "Don, I don't want to see him get hurt." Next, he would explain: "Bert, he's the damn star of the show--nothing is going to happen."
She'd give him his insulin shot in the morning, and all he would say: "A damn harpoon."
It was all so perfect, in a way.
Werefox Vaquero--just a Buckaroo
"Werefox Vaquero--just a Buckaroo"
On the cattle ranch, Max observed Ela in mere Socratic fashion, not even Platonic really, for he was singular--in some ways. The Buckaroo (Max himself) knew Ela was no simplistic tenderfoot, and had probably been squeezing utters since a child; still, he knew of string-theory, of Jesus as the vine and the believers as the branches, a connected network of a theoretical Otherworld; therefore, maybe her silky, black mane that crowned a radiating female strength was worth a saunter up to; next, an innocent gander, him knowing that most women can put a man through hell, yet it worked both ways, as do wires and cameras run both ways; thus, he would not be swift, yet wise--as the poet Alexander Pope instructed, or so he read on a cereal box once.
He motioned his ostrich-skinned cowboy boots up to her over the sandy geography, tilted his Stetson, and she smiled immediately, him getting a dumbfounded look on his startled face, as if knowing she had been waiting for him to notice. Then, she smiled a set of pearly whites, her front tooth chipped, but it only added to her amazing aura, and offered: "You wanna get some coffee after we wrangle these critters?"
He reclaimed his suave, at least halfway, felt a bit dizzy, but managed to stick some chaw under his lip; next, smoothly stated: "Sure darling, but I'm buying."
Saturday, March 3, 2018
Werefox Vaquero--just a non-arcane individual
"Werefox Vaquero--just a non-arcane individual"
Max was a bit curious concerning his cowgirl co-worker in the kinda/sorta cattle industry of what you might dub as agriculture--at least in a few circles of men. So many metaphorical wolf-packs running around, and a lone human-hybrid canine (allegorical folks) every so often, also pranced on a set of all fours in search of sustenance; specifically, protein I'm talk'n.
Yet there was more to this Dungeons and Dragons world, gelled with cosmic theories, angelic forces, conspiracy politics, and good old MLB. However, Max understood the gist and the graveyard gestures. The tombs built, the babies born, the rich, the poor, the squirrels--meaning--miser types, and the fornication of cheap thrills, but most of us have been there, from time to time.
Max was singular. Earth tones, in wardrobe, buzz-cut, clean-shaven, smelled like peppermint, took his C, D3, ate lamb and rabbit, beer when needed to calm the conducting shakes, and tolerated his own passion for singularity. He tolerated it well.
The Arizona nights were almost epic, every time the Daystar dropped and the Celestial Sparks shimmered, he took more than a glimpse, imbibing the grand scenario and cosmic battles. As if a theoretical philosopher, pondering every and each possibility.
Wished he had a surf board and lived on the Pacific. California--too high-priced. Oregon, well--there was always that. And ducks aren't so bad. He possessed no duck phobia. He could tolerate ducks too.
Werefox Vaquero
"Werefox Vaquero"
Ela didn't exactly watch over the cattle, living among the folk, being simply a Hoodlum or Little Mary, which in cowboy terminology means: "Chops wood, peels potatoes, and chases around the chuck-wagon." She was part Apache--how much she didn't know, and didn't care. She knew what she fancied, and that was all that mattered to her. And she felt a vociferous conscience tell her: "You can do anything you want--just be nice; at the same time, let nobody label you, and if they do--label them right back. Ela, you are a sweet girl, don't let anyone bind your decency."
She had a thing for foxes. Some say a trickster. Others say fidelity and loyalty. What did William Blake say: "The fox condemns the trap--not himself." Moreover, the visionary poet, a mere tradesman probed: "The moral Christian is the cause for the unbeliever and their laws." Ela had no opinion. She was just a ranch-hand, more or less. Tucson, or near about. And driving through downtown Phoenix was always a treat, especially at night.
She managed a little shanty when not hanging out with cattle, those sweet and holy eyes, and being able to mystically morph into a Kit Fox--small, gentle, agile, strong, loyal. Too, a sense of playfulness.
She had no boyfriend, yet was not out of the game, just adoring all that God had given her--a chance to be alive, no matter how chronic the pain. A sense of Moon and Sun, of salubrious air, of poetry, and Eye-of-Round cooked in butter and water, along with carrots, sea salt, pepper, and thyme.
She drank her coffee as the stars lit the Heavens, and even though she never dismissed her heritage, she gelled with the pure spirit of sublimity, remembering the symbolic Eagle write: "The light cometh, and the darkness comprehends it not."
Friday, March 2, 2018
Tesla and the grocery market
"Tesla and the grocery market"
Had to venture further than 2 miles away from my suburban habitat today, a nervous wreck--in a way; specifically, what if I have to urinate, what if there is some Kojack with a Kodak in the bushes armed with a radar gun, what if some maniac opens fire? OCD, in medical terms. They say Tesla had it too. Wiped his silverware off a certain number of times, only drank distilled water, ordered from the same place, his groceries, was reclusive, yet hung out with Mark Twain here and there.
Into the market, sanitizing my hands, and have too many groceries to go through automatic checkout. They touch my groceries, and I get a little nervous, viewing the microcosmic kingdom in the theater of my mind; next, I gently allow the older and beautiful man to push out my stuff. He tells me there's a car show. Talks about his life. Seemed lonely. I shook his hand, prayed for nobody to hurt him when I exited, sanitizing my hand, and my dog jumping around in the car.
Everybody has gifts. Everyone has beauty. In a way. Unless you inflict control over someone--that's what gives people an asymmetrical vibe. It's a Free Country, they used to say.
I see people in my family. A beautiful blonde boy, and he doesn't even know it. My step-dad, and while all of his sons love him, I actually like him, so does another. Not out to impress or sway with bologna. They said I was allergic to people. A nocturnal job for years; next, home and reading everything I could get my hands on. That guy is arrogant others say. No, I just like the simple things, as Plotinus may argue. Maybe there was a time when I craved. Had ambition. Now, get in, get out, lock the doors, and wish I could play cards with Grandma all night and drink coffee.
Men followed my mother, locked her in cars, exposed themselves to her--it happened her entire life, and she never called a cop. She never laid down any ground rules when I returned home over a decade ago, broken, infused for years, and knowing that everyone was instructing her, as if they were her Daddy, on how to live her life. Like I said--everyday she would tell me, because I always confessed my sins to her; as a result, she would tell me: "They said this, or they said that." She told me every word.
Haven't been to the bar for my two beers in months. There's a cool guy that hangs up there with the face of an angel. He knows sports and how to survive. Maybe it is all pack related. I asked my shrink once: "Is it okay for me to have friends?" He said: "Of course. Just make sure you find people like yourself."
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